I have had the same feelings. My husband knows I identify as bi but not my family. I am satisfied with our relationship. I just wish more of it could be non virtual but we do what we can right? Lately everytime I look at him, I just see his manliness as a slap in the face to what I desire, which is very female. He was devastated, felt inferior like he could never fully satisfy me.
I am still friends with my best friend but she lives in another start.
A lot of hurt people, its really not worth it. For those that reject you, it is their loss because they will be losing Ray and for those that do, they will love all of Ray. Omg…sounds like me and my husband. You guys need to seek a sex therapist. Sheesh I know the pain.